Sunday, January 30, 2005
Smoke is coming out of my head.. *sizzle*Can't they just farking make up their minds?!?!!! Stop their freaking FICKLE-MINDEDNESS??!!!?!!!!!!
Warning: This is another of my rant and rave sessions. If u hate being ranted and raved at, please save urself the agony and leave now. If u like reading about and sharing my problems with me, or offering me some condolences, then proceed. Thanks.
REALLY. I'm really exxxtremely pissed right now. One day, they say wanna find a shop with living quarters to move to and ask me to quickly find one for them. Kept chasing me and pushing me for it. (This really annoys me supremely, i can assure u, and caused many heated arguments between my mum and me.)
I spent days, weeks and even a few months or so looking for it. Then finally i found one, with reasonable rent, nice location, nice environment. (Opposite Queensway Shopping Centre, for those who are wondering.) They visited the place and liked it, and decided to take it.
THEN the a few days later they told me they don't want it. They rather forfeit the $500 deposit. WTF?!! Wasted my effort, wasted my time, wasted my $500 deposit (which i'm getting back from them). I dun mind paying for them actually, if it's really deposit for the shop, not when it's forfeited. Dammit!
It's times like this that i really hate to live with them. Keep moving around is one thing, not to mention the time needed to pack, move, unpack, etc. I accepted it.
BUT nobody farks around with me by telling me to do something for them, and after i spent time, effort, and money doing it, they then come telling me 'no we want something totally different'. -_-ZZZZZZ
I really feel like being fooled. What's this, has April Fool arrived and i'm not aware of it??? What can i do, besides following what they decide? They may ask for my opinion, they can tell me i'm an adult and i should share this (problem or whatever) with them, but in the end whatever decisions they make, do they ask me? Do they listen to what i want? No what! They just go ahead and decide and then just tell me what they decided. Note: it's tell, without considering my thoughts and situation in this.
I YEARN for the day when i can finally leave the nest. For those who are pointing fingers at me and calling me an ingrate, this doesn't mean i'm going to abandon them. No matter what happens, i'll take up the responsibility to take care of them for the rest of their lives. But i want to live my life my own way, and make my own decisions (regardless of whether they're right or mistakes).
At this moment, i don't know if i should cry or what. Ahhh!! &$^#@$*&!^@$%*%$@#%!&%#@^&%@!*&%*!!!
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*Takes a deep deep breath* Right.. i always feel much better after typing my 'sorrows' here. Haiz. Hope things will get better soon.
posted @ 10:59 AM